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Nasty Comments about my “Cemented Pearls of Pain”
“This blog is creepy, beyond creepy. I feel like I just crawled out of a shit ridden toilet filled with your cemented pearls of pain.”
A recent reader offered this wonderfully constructed sentence embodying a cornucopia of foul emotions all at once. It’s actually really good stuff. Except for the fact that the toilet she crawled out of appears to be one of her own making.
<Perhaps we should give Stephen King a call -”A strangled flush in the night gave way to the wafting malodorous hint that the Blog That Shat Pearls of Pain was to “[reep] havoc … stalking a family member …”>
But I digest.
And now a break from your regularly scheduled integration
I have not written in a while. My life has been topsy-turvey and I’ve not been able to muse much lately about internal realities and external reality checks. But I will not let this blog be driven by diary-led ramblings. Only well-researched ramblings allowed. So I refrain from writing without trying to make a Point.
I have a Point.
<Perhaps two.>
Meet Emily: the harassing, attention-seeking manipulative stalker and computer-crasher
So I participated in a forum for the first time. I asked (nicely) about a strongly held belief on the owner/moderator’s website about DID (that it’s a psychosis). Didn’t make sense to me. After an escalated discussion, I was trashed by the moderator for my “harassing attention-seeking, manipulative behavior.”
Then to prove her point, she edited my posts to her liking in order to remove her inconsistent statements and my questions that she refused to answer. After she locked me out of the forum. <laughing>
Don’t worry – I will not do the same to her. I will keep her anonymous.
But, appears to be a dictatorship. Rewriting history for your own needs. Jr. High School drama, eh? Let’s take a look at how moderators can hurt their own readers, as well as their own reputations. And for this woman, perhaps even her own patients.
Comment: A world dipped in fear
I read a great quote today:
PTSD is like waking up one day and the world has been dipped in fear.
Wow. Heavy. True. It’s from a post called Awakenings: Dipped in Fear from the blog of Catatonic Kid: A Mind Boiling Over. It’s a great description of what PTSD feels like.
The ability to trust with DID in therapy and in real life
A huge barrier for survivors of abuse, especially child abuse, is the issue of trust. How do you ever establish trust with a therapist, friends and family, and how do you repair it when it falters? Since trust is the first cornerstone of therapy, lack of trust leaves the individual stalled in making therapeutic progress.
Turns out the cycle of trust and lack of trust is normal in DID. Here are my research findings with ties to my own experiences.
Changing therapists – my therapist responds
In the last post, Changing therapists – what to consider, I presented a list of questions for my therapist and I to explore, in my quest to decide if I should change therapists. This is a summary of the discussion. While it is targeted to me, if you have some of the same questions I had, you might gain some insight from these answers.
“Let’s pretend” – a First Step in “I” becoming “We”
October 29, 2008 at 6:26 pm · Filed under Comments, Personal Musings, Understanding DID and tagged: alters, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotional numbing, Psychology, PTSD, recovery, therapy, triggers, Understanding DID
HF and I started a conversation with a few posts, and we agreed to continue the point/counterpoint discussion. I think it’s cool to talk about severe dissociation with someone who doesn’t believe in it, but who is willing to give it a good think, so to speak.
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